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The following is going to be a lot of blah-blah-blah about my foot.
So if you’re sick of reading about it, click away.
So. I start another round of sympathetic nerve blocks tomorrow. I will get two a week (on Monday and Wednesday) for three weeks. Each block will be followed directly with a physical therapy appointment. I can already tell you that the physical therapy appointments are going to suck. I mean…. I will just be coming out of anesthesia for crying out loud! Whatever.
The reason I am going to go through this again is because in about four to five months my chances of healing will pretty much dwindle down to a big, fat, zilch-o. I’ve looked into other surgery options and none of them have very good success rates. Plus, not many doctors would be willing to perform some of them on someone my age and in my situation. So needless to say, I am in panic mode. I NEED to heal, people. I CANNOT live my life with RSD. I just can’t. I really don’t know what I will do if this doesn’t work.
I mean…. Of course I will go on. I don’t have a choice on that one. But. I don’t think I will be able to continue living a happy life without going into counseling and/or start taking some lovely anti-depressant pills. I already know I’m tapped as far as my emotions are concerned. I still have days where I break down over nothing and just cry and cry and cry. I know it is because the last seven months are haunting me. And because of that, any small incident that happens can send me into a massive crying jag. Seriously. You should see me when I break down. It is terrible. At the end of the jag my eyes end up being swollen for over 24 hours. Not.Exaggerating. I feel so bad for my husband and kids who have to see and hear me during those times. I’m sure I look like a train wreck and sound like a blubbering baby.
Gah!!! When will it end, people? WHEN?
Hopefully it ends after this round of sympathetic nerve blocks.
If it doesn’t, then you will be able to find me twice a week at a local therapist’s office near you.
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I am praying this round works. Really.
Gawd, Kelly. This is ridiculous. I’m very,very sorry that you are having to go through this. I just don’t get it…SOMETHING happened inside your foot…why can’t they locate the issue and fix it?!
Good luck with this latest round. I really hope it works and you can have your old, wonderful life back…
Oh, Nello.. I hope this works.
Here’s a big hug to start your week.
xo
LBC
I really hope this works for you. I can feel how miserable you are and it makes me sad. I will be praying that this time it works and you can be pain free.
delurking to say “Good luck”. I hope it works out!
I love the new design.
AND I’m glad you’re back.
I’ll be saying a little prayer for you every night… and I’m going to light a candle for you too.
Kelly, I will be keeping you in my prayers. I hope, hope, hope, hope that this works for you. It is like being in labor all the time. I can’t even imagine….
Great birthday goodies too!! I think the new design is great.
I’ve got my fingers, toes, arms, legs, and everything else I can think of crossed for you!!
Oh, oh, oh…I hate getting old and having all thie CRAP happen. Good luck!
fingers and toes are crossed ….
I hope it works!!!!
blessings
mama kelly
OMG! you look so gorgeous in that picture. Really. And I love the new look of the blog. I sincerely hope something works for your foot soon. take care.
I found your blog from a link on another blog my wife and I read…and I saw that you self taught yourself Web, html, and so on. I’m interested in doing the same (not for the same reasons, so no competition from me). Recommend any books, or materials that helped you in your quest?
I know you don’t know me from Adam and I am not going to tell you this to scare you or piss you off but…I had a friend who crushed his ankle…He tried everything and then after a year he made the decision to have it amputated. Here is his Blog:
http://tisgarplen.blogspot.com/
He has another site that talks about his journey. It’s a thought.
Hang in there kiddo. It will all work out the way God intended. I’m pulling for you!
Have you thought about accupuncture? I’m trying. There are worse things that can happen to you my dear. Be lucky you have a loving husband, wonderful children, supporting family, many friends…. Pain sucks I know this from my end….. but taking an anti depressant pill will help you calm down and be stable for your gorgeous little family and it is okay to ask for help from a therapist. Hang in there… there’s a lot of us praying for you.
Like the new design! You and your entire family look just beautiful, and I really hope you are soon out of pain and able to fully enjoy the life you have together.
Oh Kelly. I really, really hope this new round will work. In the meantime- girl! don’t hold out on finding an antidepressant! It’s not a life sentence but could make getting through this really difficult time more manageable.
Your site looks beautiful.
I am Mary’s ‘friend’. Feel fre to email me if you like.
Ron
hey kelly – let me know when you need my help. your new pic on the side bar is adorable! also your friday wrap red glittery thing isn’t working. maybe it’s my comp?
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